back for good

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this is the 3rd time i say i am back…

this time i really am back

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust none but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. ~Marilyn Monroe

 

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when i have words i cannot say. this is the 1st place i can think of. i know after i stop writing for a while, many will forget to check on this site. that day is coming  soon but i am not excited a least bit. nothing is like what i wanted. i really mean NOTHING AT ALL. i thought the people who knows me best will know, but hell no. i fit into the plans made. a date not close to mine, not anything like i wanted, not at a place i like, not what i wanted to have. but i said nothing. cos i also dunno what to say either. haha. its feels like just something we can faster get over and done with. ha…

i have so much to rant. i loathe those who claimed a million times how much they love me but its all full of shit. but their actions shows otherwise. i know who are those that truly loves me. i cant act like i enjoy those pretentious love. the harder i try , i am being pushed away even further.

i am so sick and tired of all this. i dun wan to say anyth nor do anymore. no more expectations so there wun be anymore disappointments.

it could be the rain. been so long since a super emo nite.

when you choose..

 

when i saw you walked away. when i was just behind you. when you made that choice to leave me alone. when i was all alone.

when i finally know. 

Sometimes..

 

i say things during moment of fury, and regret it straight after..

i want to be stronger, but tears can’t help falling..

i wonder was it because we are too close, we start taking each other for granted..

i was upset with u over ONE mistake u made, and forgot the many right things u have done..

i really feel like giving up, but your words always keeps me from falling apart..

i dun understand why others can put in so much effort, but you will never go the extra mile..

i am so afraid of heart breaks, and i dun want to give others chance to hurt me again and again

i know though u always appear nonchalent, but you cares alot..

..

sometimes i just want to look at you look at me, and wonder how you can bring so much happiness to people around you

Good girls go bad

 

finally the long awaited weekend is here. well spent with my dears, but it was seriously very very tiring. our weekly dosage of mahjong after work on fri night till 5am.

 dragged myself outta my comfort zone the next day to meet the girls for dinner at MOF. Reminisicing our scondary school days had us all laughing so hard, and realising the countless evil sins we committed bullying the others. haha.

Promised dear to club with her in the night so i went to St James with her even though my eyes could barely open. (PS: I dun wan to risk my friendship with her y’know! she threatened me!!!) and i begged Gin to go along with me. I am so glad she was there. Imagine me, cabbing home myself. Geesh~

The people present

adel, joy, me, gin. can’t believe the bouncer still want to check my IC when i am reaching my 21st in mere months

 

spent some time at Dragonfly for the start. give face to joy’s boss who signed us him thus the free entry!!  its seriously hard to dance to the Canto-pop songs. Met pretty wan xin at dragonfly to. Going to have new lunch-mate and i am going to be one of her first few customers soon. haha.

moved to Powerhouse after a short while, because adel simply cant wait to be there. The hardcore clubber!! Now i know why some many are obsessed over Powerhouse because i swear the songs there are dope!! almost all my favourite clubbing songs were played throughout the night. A pity i was too tired and i dunno why i dun even feel a bit high despite drinking a mixture of alcohols. sians!

went back at around 4 with ginny while joy and adel went on for supper. i really dunno where my dear got all that energy of hers from. Power!

i miss Yoguru so much…. cant remember the last time i had it already.. somebody pls~

it is again the time, whereby everything is falling in place. i am so happy lately that  i fall asleep every night with a smile on my face. I hope time could just stop and this feeling will never have to go away.

i heard it somewhere saying that  勇氣是每天的一點一滴累計成的. but to me, 勇氣是別人給的the courage i have now is given by people who trust and love me, always guiding me and never ever give up on me. They helped me moved on, make decisions that are important in every phase of my life, let go of people that hurt me, stay strong and be myself. Thank u S, G, Y. 

now i hope that someone can have the courage i have too.

fuck it lah~

 

actually i really have nothing interesting to blog about. haha. life basically revolves around work, work, and more work. I dun like to feel negative and demorlise but sometimes its really inevitable with the kind of people leading us. Luckily, there is always jie jie, papa, and carrot around. they never fail to bring lots of laughters at work.

and sweet treats make me happy to

i tell myself..

 

 

i will smile, despite what happens. i will look so happy till nobody will know that sometimes, i am never as happy as i appear to be.. 

i know i can. from now on, i will  

 

pathetic~

 

“有時候不是對方不在乎你而是你把對方看得太重”

life is not just about that someone. we all have to learn to understand this. A pity that some people will never understand this logic throughout their whole life.

tata is bacKkkk…

 

Surprised? i am back

i hope i can keep this going.

alot of things have happened but yet nothing big has really happened. i know i am not quite making sense here, but this is really the case. life has basically evolves around the same old thing since the time i have not been blogging till now. As time goes by, i get to see the true colours of those people around me.. thats all.

Signing off with love,

tata